From chaos-l-owner@www.hollyfeld.org Mon Nov 22 23:02:40 1999 Return-Path: Received: from www.hollyfeld.org (209-67-233-180.bst0.flashcom.net [209.67.233.180]) by jovita.jovita.net (8.8.5/8.8.5) with ESMTP id XAA03784 for ; Mon, 22 Nov 1999 23:02:39 -0600 Received: (from majordom@localhost) by www.hollyfeld.org (8.9.3/8.9.3) id AAA20878 for chaos-l-outgoing; Tue, 23 Nov 1999 00:02:34 -0500 X-Authentication-Warning: www.hollyfeld.org: majordom set sender to owner-chaos-l@hollyfeld.org using -f Received: from jovita.jovita.net (IDENT:mail@jovita.jovita.net [209.150.128.146]) by www.hollyfeld.org (8.9.3/8.9.3) with ESMTP id AAA20872 for ; Tue, 23 Nov 1999 00:02:25 -0500 Received: from localhost (fenwick@localhost) by jovita.jovita.net (8.8.5/8.8.5) with SMTP id WAA00884 for ; Mon, 22 Nov 1999 22:51:46 -0600 Date: Mon, 22 Nov 1999 22:51:41 -0600 (CST) From: Fenwick Rysen X-Sender: fenwick@jovita.jovita.net To: chaos-l@hollyfeld.org Subject: Re: The psychomagcikcal connection and MPD/DID (on the verge of the cure?)snakeoil? In-Reply-To: <3839A44D.DA6662F5@comcat.com> Message-ID: MIME-Version: 1.0 Content-Type: TEXT/PLAIN; charset=US-ASCII Sender: owner-chaos-l@hollyfeld.org Precedence: bulk Reply-To: chaos-l@hollyfeld.org Status: RO X-Status: lo eskis i What is it with all this "What is the abyss?" stuff, eh? I don't beLIEve in the Abyss, and I suspect that the feeling is mutual and that the Abyss chooses not to beLIEve in me. If I cross the street, is that any less important or significant than crossing the abyss, whatever it is? I was on this side, and now I'm on that side, and such is my will. Q:"Why did Fenwick cross the road?" A:"Five tons of flax." I crossed the Abyss once, and then realized it wasn't the Abyss I'd crossed---it was a black ribbon stretched to infinity in either direction, and separated the world in two, and bridging it was a golden path filled with laughing children. On the opposite side glowed white lights that beckoned me to join them: *WALK* they flashed... *WALK* *WALK* *WALK* and so I walked. *DON'T WALK* *DON'T WALK* *DON'T WALK* and so I stopped. The whole mess about the abyss is too transcendent for me; I don't beLIEve in transcendentalism. I'm much more pragmatic about my magick; ever the kitchen witch. Can I feel my magick, see my magick, taste my magick? Yes? Then that's the way I like it. If I'm looking for enlightenment or transcendental experiences, I don't look to magick---I look to friends and family. My lover, my friends, my family all teach me more about life, magick, and enlightenment than sitting alone in a dark room attempting to cross or master some ephemeral "Abyss" ever has. There is no such thing as the Abyss, and crossing it was wondrous. "If you gaze into the abyss, then the abyss also gazes into you" ---Freidrich Nietzche Sorry... Just a long and probably meaningless (possibly extremely lucid) rant brought on by a very good glass (or three) of Merlot and a cat purring contentedly in my lap. Abyss Schmabyss; fuck it all. Talk about it all you want, you'll just be blowing wind. Words words words... Once upon a time, I got really frustrated with one of my teachers when I asked him about the abyss. He wouldn't tell me anything about it, other than "It defies words". He never told me how to cross it---those who are ready to cross it do so. I understood his reasons some years later. And now here I am doing the same damned thing. Fuck it all. In Life, Love, and Laughter ___ --Fenwick Rysen http://www.chaosmatrix.com o | Magick Code: MCH/PA S* W++(--) N$+++ PCE/NO/EC@ Ds/d/r+ A++ / a++ C$++++>+++++ G+++ QH++>----- 666++>-- Y+++ .__|__. | ___ | "The only prevalent characteristic of chaotes is their / ability to confuse you beyond all hope of rescue." | ---Mathias Karlsson ____________...oooOOO---chaos-l@hollyfeld.org---OOOooo..._____________ To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe" to chaos-l-request@hollyfeld.org To unsubscribe your@email.com send "unsubscribe your@email.com" To unsubscribe from the digest send to chaos-l-digest-request@hollyfeld.org http://www.hollyfeld.org/heaven/elists/chaos-l.phtml